i had 3 timed prac today.

well.. you can say that i barely prepared for econs and hardly touched chem and math.
NO TIME.
so many to do, even more to catch up.... but many new things popping up!!

recently i was checking out (among my friends) how they feel about having many many timed prac and all..
while some thought it was okay as they could have more prac on the subjects and topics they alr almost fully understood.. others agreed with me that we SHOULD be given time to actually study by ourselves.

i guess that school MUST have thought that we have all surpassed that stage. however i beg to differ. being a part of the minority who simply cant get the desired grades and even struggle to pass.. i really need time for myself, to revise my work.

personally, i've been feeling that everyday school is about tutorials and more tutorials. with the reivision lectures and all.. you are simply preparing for more tutorials than ever before whether you are actually supposed to attend a genuine tutorial or "lecture". just ytd, i was faced with the challenge of having to spend 6 hours (time i planned) doing my work.

it's really mentally challenging. my friend was telling me how she dont even sleep that much.. what an irony.

maybe what i am facing now is what a typical ajc year 2 should face..but.. i dunno.

i dread stepping into the school everyday to feel the deafening silence, see the reluctance of my fellow peers in wanting to start the day and to experience the teachers rushing you to get going.

the feeling is really awful, so much so that i just feel like falling sick so that i can have a break.

but i'm healthy and well, showing no signs of falling sick at all.
well...

i dunno what i want to say alr.