UNLEASH has reminded me that there are brothers and sisters out there which i should care for.
also, there are brothers and sisters around me to care for me. :)

wouldnt it be nice if we're all in a bond of love.
so nice.

hmmm.
i am really happy to receive encouragements that are beyond what i can expect.
not only in words but also through actions.
mm.
really happy too that ppl understand how important is this retest to me.
you know jolene can just volunteer to help me close camp accounts (which is very tedious),
and kendra pushing me to do my work in a postive way..
and rachel and daniel which just encouraged me to go and it felt like
"we understand, no worries, just go and study.."

it feels really really comforting=)
you know, i have mentioned before that i'm missing so much things cause of the retest..
and TADA.
i just missed one more.
our class gathering in a way changed date to one beautiful day before my papers.
so how can i go?

and first i was thinking.
why a sudden change of year, from 2010 to 2009?
then i realised it is to suit the majority.
then again i was thinking.
why didnt they know about my plight.
then i realised that i chose to keep it a secret in a way.
got the xin tong feeling man.
but, I'LL STILL LOVE MY CLASS.

okay now i shall update of my studying status.
i am trying to work hard.
but it's hard.
i dunno how i can manage my time in this christmas season man.
everything seems so unclear.

ask me to take the papers now?
i am not ready. I AM NOT READY.
esp for chem, havent really worked on it.

I NEED PRAYERS, PLS KEEP ME IN PRAYER.
please pray for me and all the others who are along in this with me.

and.
the christmas outreach event.
i cant be a part of the planning comm.
and now even being there for the event seems impossible.

ppl ask me why i cant give up my church commitments now..
but i'll say that i believe that God would give me that extra to go through all. :)

FATHER IN HEAVEN,
i ask that Lord may You grant me strength and wisdom to go through this final week before the important day.
Lord, there are many things that are ahead of me and i just cant seem to make things out logically.
Father i acknowledge that You are my Hope.
And You are my Comforter.
In You, all things are possible.
Lord, grant me the faith to believe, Lord.
And as i spend this Christmas in this way this year, Lord i ask that may You reveal to me Your plan and purpose.
Father i want to rely on Your strength and Your strength alone.
May You watch over Your daughter here, granting her the motivation to pull it through all.
And at the end of it, may all glory be unto Your name.
I give You thanks and pray all these in Jesus' name, AMEN!