today is wednesday (like obviously..), the second "official" day of the week..
and i'm feeling very very sian of everything..

basically i thought i finally passed my first test and i didnt and i really really mean it when i said i screwed up my test tdy as well..

i guess i'm just really sick of the routine i'm living everyday..
is like cannot even rest peacefully..
i'll like wake up in the middle of the night and be like "is my alarm going to ring soon?" everyday..

i feel like shirking off all responsiblities..
i feel like going back to 16..
is like why people wanna be seventeen again?
i dunno wan leh...

i say i'm tired le..
i still have a after action review and a nomination thing to do..

the emo-est thing i did today was to go and buy bubble tea myself and walked home at the speed of a snail, counting the no. of signbards hdb added..
i mean who will ever do that?..
hmmmm.

and my stomach's hurting..
and my brain juice is draining rapidly..
and i'm tired but i cannot sleep..
and tmr's a long day again..
and..

i feeling like going back to that 20secs ago in the hospital after dislocating my shoulder and the doctor was about to make me sleep..

then again i feel like going to that 15mins later which i feel super relieved and refreshed..

hmmmmmmm.